LOVELIFESOMUCH.!

Bby's big day!

2010-12-30T11:47:00.002+08:00

It's baby's big day!
Baby's performing as the lead guitarist at camp today!
All the best baby!
You can do it!
*remember to clap your hands in the air okay?*
heh! You confirm tanak do! :C

CAN'T WAIT FOR THE RESULTS!
YEEEEHAAA!
HEH!

I LOVE YOU BABY!
miss you ah bushuk!

muchLOVES!

ESPECIALLY FOR BABY

2010-12-28T12:41:00.007+08:00

MUHAMMAD ZULFIQAR

hey sayang(:
time flies so fast eh, we've been tgthr for so long
already kan? C:
It's really unexpected to know someone who once is
a total stranger suddenly becomes someone you can't live
without.
Sayang,
we came from different worlds.
To put it in other words, we're two worlds apart.
Like for instance, the songs we listen to, the food we share.
But we found each other and that's where it all started.

170509 at 1230 AM was when it all started.

You confessed your love through numbers on the
handphone keypad which I pretended to not understand.
Followed by the music I seitched on : I'm yours
which you didn't get
and finally, the proposal behind a Chinese Funeral
AND my answr which I needed time to think of at my staircase!

HEH!

Funny how things has changed so quickly and we're now
so dependent on each otherC:

You just love making faces, don't you? You're just so adorable.
I LOVE YOU!

I'm confident that this will last not just now, later but forever!

I love you so much only god knows how C:

I miss you every second of my life,
I need you all my life.

You're just unlike any other,
I love you forever!

I swear this time I mean it

XOXO,

NUR HIDAYAH

work

2010-12-28T11:43:00.003+08:00

Been forever since I last blogged. Currently bored at work.
:C
Actully other than picking up calls, there's really nothing else
to do. I'm not a very often internet user thus I don't really
know what to do when there is only a computer in front of me.
boohoo!
Have only been FB-ing and stomp-ing.
OMG. I SOUNDED LIKE A KE-PO/ STALKER.
hahaha!

MISSING BF SO MUCH!
:C
eeeyer schedule getting suckier.
So packed!!!

:C

* learning corners
* DINAMIS (but I like!heh!)

haizzzz.
wouldd be damn busyyyyy:C

since i'm free now, i'm gonna change my blogskin!
WOHOOOO!!

love you muhammad zulfiqar! C:

muchLOVES

It's been a long time..

2010-08-16T14:16:00.004+08:00

I just realised that it's been months since I last updated.
It's like even before sem 2.1 started. And
now, its even over.
Oh My.
Well, anyways,
love with bby is still strong like ever before..
And, Ramadhan is back!!
Puasa now.
Raya soon.
HEH.
come my house okay?
(=

Iftar-ing with gfs later(:
rafidah, hamidah and shareena..
and meeting boyfriend after that <3

ok, gtg now.

lovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelove
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;D

2010-03-30T14:33:00.002+08:00

at work currently.
REAL BORED.
rach not here yet.
Plans for Chalet's gonnabe finalised.
can't wait. Hoping it'll go as planned;D
Thanks Val for organising on the food.
;D

hmm.
Nothing much to do.
Missing bby so badly.
School's starting in, er, 20 Days?!
omg.

Missing you sayang;
can't wait to meet ya on THURSDAY!
"Oh, hurry hurry home love, I miss You So;D"

muchLOVES!

;D

2010-02-24T21:51:00.001+08:00

AWW-ESOME DAY WITH 1E02 AT BOTANICAL GARDEN YESTERDAY;D
though the weather was terrible, scorching hot sun was following us wherever we went!-.-
OVERALL, AWESOME SHIT;D

moreoutingsmoreoutings!
OUHYA, happy 18th birthday COLLETTE!
YOU MUST READ THIS K?
;D

sayangbabynomatterwhat!
muchLOVES!

NINEMONTHSARY

2010-02-17T00:13:00.003+08:00

yEAhhh!!
BABY AND I ARE OFFICIALLY NINE MONTHS NOW.
i love you so fucking much sayang!!!
:)
What can i say?

I had the best Valentine's day!
And,
THE BESTEST NINE MONTHS EVER:)
HEHEH!
papa,
Thanks for the bautiful gift.
(It's a necklace with an engraving of "ZACK'S"! heh! BE jealos ppl!:P haha!)
I'M freaking in love with it!!
Will post the pixxx when i got the time.
And thanks for the awesomely sweet pretty beautiful hand made card!
I LOVE YOU AH SAYANG!
WHAT MORE CAN I EVER ASK FOR?

I've already gotten the best!!!
And I won't risk losing you BABY!
i love you!

muchLOVES!

;)

2010-02-01T00:31:00.003+08:00

ALL assignments due soon!
CDEV paper coming soon too!
STUDDDDYYY!
must start early this time.
Revise Iqra'!!

ARGHH.
:(

On the greener side,
HOLIDAYS COMING!!!!!
real soon!
work???
$$$

Anyways, bby's gotten firefighter!!
I'M SO PROUD OF YOU B!!!
3 MORE MONTHS.
i'm sure you can bby!
;)

much<3s

:)

2010-01-19T02:01:00.007+08:00

15JANUARY2010
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANAFI:)

AND,

17JANUARY2010
HAPPY EIGHTH MONTHSARY zackydora!
hahahahahha!
FINALLY:P
i love you sayang!

I MISS YOU SAYANG!
Though all the fights and arguments,
I still love you and the love I have for you,
NEVER changed.
Like you said, we'll treat it like any other yeah?
May we last the LONGEST.
heh!
Insya'allah.
Amin.

MuchLOves

<3

2010-01-13T01:13:00.002+08:00

I'm okay now(:
THANKS TO ALL WHO ASKED YA!
;]

and i miss baby.
Currently skype-ing.
ahhaha.
it's oh so fun skype-ing with baby and fam.
Even mak and bapak of baby joined!
how cool-er can it be?

(=
Day's had been just awesome.
i love baby so much.
Miss you b,
get well kay sayang!

P/s: BABY, WE CAN DO THIS FOREVER!!!

muchLOVES.

STARLIT SKY

2010-01-11T23:58:00.001+08:00

do check out my baby's BAND!!!

here's the link>>>>

http://www.myspace.com/starlitsky373

muchLOVES!

SORE EYES

2010-01-11T23:41:00.003+08:00

School's just starting and I'm down with sore eyes.
Got it from sayang, cuz his bunk mates had it so, he got it too.
Poor baby.
Get well kay sayang?
I feel the same way as you do.
So, baby tak feel it alone k baby?
:)
I love you baby.
This post is specially dedicated for you baby.
:)
I LOVE YOU BABY.

muchLOVES.

Dear love;

2010-01-07T17:09:00.004+08:00

Hey baby,
I'm like missing you more than ever...
Kept looking through your sweet texts and your blog.
You're just too good to be true And i'm like so in
love with you. Bby, be insecure no more for you know
that you're the only one I want and ever need.
You're the one whom I think of every single day and
everytime before I'm off to lalaland.
I miss you so much baby!!
please come home quickly...
"hurry hurry home love,
I miss you so..."

Not forgetting,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAK!!
i love you always...

muchloves!!

17051230

2009-12-17T00:53:00.004+08:00

Finally, the day has come!
:D
seventeenohfivetwelvethirty!
Bbyboy;
ILYSFM.

Thanks for everything you've done for me.
Thanks for always being by my side.
Thanks for wiping my tears when i shed them.
Thanks for being so patient with me.
Thanks for always being the one who make things better every time.
Thanks for the love you've showered me with.
Thanks for the tears you've cried for me.
Thanks for LOVING ME:)

l love you so much.

I'll treasure you.
I'll cherish you.
I'll try to convince you more.
I'll try to explain more.
I'll try to change if there's a need to.
I'll always need you to keep me going in this life.

I <3 you.
And I miss You.

sUPerLoTSAhUgSaNdKiSsEs,
FrOmMeToYoU!
xOxO

muchLOVES!

everthing that i do, reminds me of you..

2009-12-16T03:09:00.003+08:00

I MISS YOU...

MuchLoves.

:(

2009-12-15T02:28:00.002+08:00

Baby;
Only 1 day passed and I'm already missing you like crazy.
Sighh.
Baby;
You're really the one for me.
Perhaps, I never knew how to appreciate you but now that I do, I swear I don't ever want to lose someone as precious as you.
Baby;
You're the light that brighten the darkness that fills me.
You're the cure to the pain I feel deep inside.
You're the solution to all the problems I have.
You're the oxygen that keeps me alive.
and last but not least;
You're the one for me.
I love you, my darling;)

i MiSS yOu So MucH sweetest!

:(

5DayStOgO.

muchLOVES!

bby book in:(

2009-12-13T22:06:00.004+08:00

sigh.
Second week
Bby's in there once again.
I never did get enough of you baby:(
I miss you ah!
sigh.
counting down.
5 days to go and i'll see your face once again.
I WON'T BE NAUGHTY WITH ANYONE ELSE BUT YOU, BABY!

xoxo

MuchLOVES!

babybabybaby

2009-12-11T13:22:00.004+08:00

FINALLY, it's Friday= Bby's bOok out!!
(=

I CAN'T WAIT!
I CAN'T WAIT!
I CAN'T WAIT!
I CAN'T WAIT!
I CAN'T WAIT!
I CAN'T WAIT!
I CAN'T WAIT!
I CAN'T WAIT!
I CAN'T WAIT!
I CAN'T WAIT!
I CAN'T WAIT!
I CAN'T WAIT!

BABY TERSAYANG,
I feel so empty Without you around sayang.

I NEED YOU!
I NEED YOU!
I NEED YOU!
I NEED YOU!
I NEED YOU!
I NEED YOU!
I NEED YOU!
I NEED YOU!
I NEED YOU!
I NEED YOU!
I NEED YOU!
I NEED YOU!
I NEED YOU!

YAY!=]
gOnna fetch my only baby later at boonlay!
Ah, I can't wait any longer.
Life's been so boring without you and i'm longing for your face baby!!!!

:D

yours truly,
your little baby chicken nugget!
heh!
:D
muchLOVES;

;)

2009-10-10T02:30:00.002+08:00

its been so long...
heh!
soo.. akon!
-.-
okay lame.

so,
*raya passed.[pix @ facebk]
*4th monthsary passed.
*gotten back results, PASSED!

but,
SCHOOL'S STARTING.
:(
kinda miss it, BUT thinking about the LONG journey just make me wanna puke BLOOD!
sighhhh!

currently busy with work.
$$$$$$$$$
HAHAHAHHA.

but, it may be quite boring at times.
have been transferred to so many diff places.

to baby zulfiqar;
i love you lah sayang.
tkmo feel insecure kay sayangku.
you sorg je pat hati i lah sayang.
tkmo fikir bukan2 k.
i may give up at certain point in time, but,
i rally thank you for being the very strong pillar
in keeping this r/s strong and being the flame that
keeps the candle in our r/s alive.
i love you b!
muaCKs!

muchLOVES

;D

2009-08-22T00:39:00.003+08:00

Many things happened eversince i last updated.
Though that, everything's cool now.
:D

OHya, ramadhan's here already.
1 month to fast.
1 month to repent.
1 month to do as much deeds possible.
:D

1 month without BF!
:/

Ohya, CDEV was a disaster.
Haiye.
WELL, i really dunnoe.
:(

PPCM ON MONDAY.
BETTER STUDYY!!!

(;

waiting for bby's call..

*selamat manjalankan ibadah puasa semua!*

P/s: HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SABBBBBB!
:)
muchLOVES.

dearlove;

2009-08-12T01:08:00.006+08:00

I'm so loving my life with you around, seriously.
I just can't bear not seeing you for even ONE day.
And, i'm loving you more and more each day.
DEAREST LOVE;
never leave me okay?
ILOVEYOUTOOMUCH!
*muacks*

bby has just gotten a proyo from toys r us at paragon.
how cute.
heh!

OHYA,
AND TO MY EX-NORTHVIEW PEERS;
i miss you all,
seriously.
Sorry for always being too busy when being asked out but i'll tell when i'm free okay?
MEET UP REAL SOOOOOON!
ohya, exams nearong right?
ALL THE BEST:D

RAMADHAN COMING TOO.
tIMe to repent.
From all the sins.
Oh too many.
:(

MANEEEEEEE SYG I NIE??
:(

muchLOVES.

my life, my choice.

2009-08-02T01:39:00.003+08:00

It's my life.
I make my decisions.
I make my OWN choice.
Yup, and I've decided to stay,
and i dun ever wanna leave, I hope.
You're the best for me already,
and anytg anyone does WON'T change my mind,
NEVER.
iLOVEyou so much and i pray for your fast recovery bby.

BEFORE I FORGET,
25JULY2009 Was bby's gig :D
it's awesome, totally.
WE HAD COUPLE SET OF CLOTHES on that day.
:P
AND, BBY DEDICated A song FOR me.
WHat MORE can I ask for?
You're the sweetest, ever!

:)

RACH, GET WELL:(

loves;

sigh.

2009-07-31T12:36:00.002+08:00

Actually,
I don't know how to feel now.
SERIOUSLY.
:(

rachbaby, get well soon.
It's been two days!
:(

muchloves;

STUPIDhelp.

2009-07-24T01:01:00.004+08:00

SIGHH.
I almost skipped the whole of IT class just to get my system set up as per normal.
Little did I know a disaster was about to happen.
I got home, switched on the laptop to find out all my pictures were missing.
MY REALLY PRECIOUS PICTURES.
TONS AND TONS of it, I swear:(
SIGHH.
They freaking Reformatted my comp in such a way all my Picxas deleted and ADOBE PHOTOSHOP and Movie maker Uninstalled.
How great and efficient?
D=
damnnnn sad now.
Dun talk to me.
(AS IF YOU WANNA TALK TO ME! :( )

imissdiegoo<3

SADDD.

EFAH(=

2009-07-23T01:03:00.002+08:00

Was boredddd so bloghopped around.
ahahhah.
AND GUESS WHAT,
i came across efah's blog.
heh.
PLEASE, she's on my friend's list but i RAREly visit her blog.
WELL, HER posts are quite interesting.
Wayyy better than mine I guess:)
AND HER SKIN, she edited herself.
I mean, the HTML and stuff.
Like fomg?
Like, a P5 WHO could edit picx and stuff?
I swear I didn't even know how the internet works till like sec 1?
WELL, my little sister sure is really advanced!
SERIOUSLY, I THINK SHE HAS ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING!
(=
WELL, i'm happy for you adik.
AHHHAHAH. sounds so wrong.
Oh well, enoughhhhh said.

I MISS MY BABY LAHH.
haiye.
ONE NIGHT SEEMED LIKE A THOUSAND DAYYYS!

meeeting ridz and the rest tmr!
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSah!

P/s: I'm getting a dickies bag!
Yeay, thAnks Rach FOR ORDERING LATE:D

lovelovelovelovelove!

regret is of no use anymore, isn't it?

2009-07-20T12:00:00.002+08:00

I'D RATHER BOTTLE UP THE WAY I FEEL.
SERIOUSLY,THERE'S REALLY NO POINT IN ME SAYING OUT MY FEELINGS.
IT JUST DOESN'T MAKE THINGS ANY BETTER.
IN FACT, IT ONLY MADE THINGS WORSE.
WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO NOW?

SIGHHHHHHH.

so much of these and that..

2009-07-20T02:24:00.006+08:00

"i tried my very best to tell myself that my bestest friend
hid everything from me,not because she wants to but because she has no choice,
as her boyfriend is part of eveything too and as a girlfriend,
its her responsibility to cover fer the boyfriend even though it means
hurting her own best friend.i thought i wasn't hurt,
and then i realised and remembered that i was the one
who introduced themselves to each other,
just to see the light of happiness in their eyes once again,
and know how its like to be with someone so true."

Well, I guessed what I did was really wrong.
You said you understood.
And there you were saying that this best friendship wouldn't end for the littlest/lamest reason.
I felt guilty and that was why I left on that day.
Well, you don't and you won't know how I felt exactly.
I don't even know how thing's gonna be like after this.
The fact that I realised we were no longer best friends from someone hurt me real bad.
The fact that you chose not to reply hurts me more.
The fact that I had to see that in your blog hurt me real much.

And to you,
I'm sorry.
I'm not deliberately trying to hurt you by doing this to you.
I just want you to realise and understand how much you mean to me.
Yeah, my mistakes for not always showing how much i love and care but that doesn't mean that I don't.
I don't blame you for reacting the way you did, though.
And seriously, you're not a boring person. Not at all and it never, and i mean, NEVER ever crossed my mind that you are.
And if you want to know, when I was in 857 with you and Apai, whilst sitting right beside you, I was thinking about how god had sent me just the right person to be with whom I hope would last with me throughout my whole life.

Do you know how much you mean to me?
Do you know how much I don't want to lose you?
Do you know how much I care for you?
Do you know how much I love you?
Do you know how much I can't stop thinking of you, be it on the way to school, at school, when I'm eating, I'm on the net and when I'm asleep as I dream of you, and even now, at this very moment.
Do you know much I long for your call each night the moment I'm done washing up after going out with you.
Do you know how much I waited patiently for all your calls each morning when it comes weekend?
Do you know how much I love receiving all your sweet goodnight messages?
Do you know how much I treasure every single moment when I'm with you?
Do you know how hurt I am now for not picking up your calls?
Do you know how much I long for your voice now? :(

Sigh. Is this of any use? Would anybody hear me out now?
Does anybody even care about how I feel now?

And if you have to know, the reason why I sent him so many smiley face was just to comfort myself. I lost a best friend, if you didn't realise. For goodness sake, my 8-year-long bestfriend.
The least you could do is to make me feel better sayang, and not react that way. I was indeed upset:(
Bby, we've been through for more than two months now.
I'm sure we can do this.

Well, I don't know what's gonna happen next.
Everyone's gonna hate me soon.
Well, I deserve it.

I'm sorry,
to whoever it may concern.

hurt.

=D

2009-07-15T01:14:00.002+08:00

LOtsa To update.
BUT REALLY, nothing much happened.
Firstly, i'm missing DIEGO bby alr.
Haiye-.-

TMR NO SCHOOL!
HEH.
SO FUN, LOG IN FROM HOME!
heh!
gOing Aunt's home for tuition tho.

Hmmm.
I miss Rach!!!!

ANd not forgetting;
my NVSS mates.
D=

hMPh.

Bby;
Thank you so much for understanding me so well.
Thank you for being like a brother, a best friend and a part of me, BOYFRIEND.
Iloveyou.
;D

mUChLoves!

D=

2009-07-09T11:33:00.004+08:00

MISERABLE-ity.
HAIYE.
SERIOUSLY, I DON'T KNOW HOW TO FEEL NOW.
HMM.

Maybe, it's just me, Or is it the people around me?
Do you people really know how I truly feel inside?
Do you know how fucking hurt I feel when I hear all that?
Why didn't you just tell me straight to me instead?
Why must you keep it away from me and act as if everything's okay?

And when I've found out...
Why is it so easy for you to say you're sorry?
Do you think pain can cure just by a simple sorry?
How can I still have the assurance that you're still sincere like you were before?

And when I think you really meant what you say...
Why do I feel a difference in us?
Why do I feel so insecure?
Why do I feel this way?

Am I also being hypocritical in a way or another?
BUT, no matter what,
It's truly based on how I feel.
And, at least,
I DON'T TALK BEHIND YOUR BACK.
AND I ACCEPT YOU JUST THE WAY YOU ARE.

I'm done.

And to my baby,
I love you,
No matter what.
Imysfm.

HURTmuch;

sigh.

2009-06-30T21:56:00.003+08:00

Perhaps, I don't understand,
But perhaps, PEOPLE JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND ME.
I'm sorry but if you know me well, I'm always so busy.
The fact that I always meet BF is because he always finds one way or another just to see me.
For instance, fetching me from school and to follow my family out.

Firstly, I'm really upset because some ppl just can't accept that fact.
Secondly, if you're really unhappy, you don't have to be hypocritical.
Thirdly, maybe i'm an ass to say this but really, bf comes right after my family.

BUT, never did I say I don't need friends!
Then, why the hell do I need ppl who really knows how I truly feel like Rach and Syerrie?

sigh.

UPD8s!

2009-06-25T12:43:00.011+08:00

I have Lotsa Updates To do!
Really.
Hehs!
Bear With mE aLright?
:D

20JUNE2009
Midnight.
It was actually a normal midnight I had since past few years whereby I'd receive texts from friends and etc but this year was an absolutely different one.
Like I actually said in the previous post, everyne was weird.
Haha. I knew it was coming but I didn't expect it to be a really AWESOME one.
What actually happened was I was online with Rachel that night and I was actually "complaining" to her about the people at my home who were acting so weirdly.
And Rachel went like "Later at 12 got surprise party for you. Then, zul will go over."
And I was Like "-----.-----"
When I was chatting with Bf, at around 11.30-11.45,
I asked where he was ad he said that he and teh group was going to play Left4dead.
I was like, "oh,okay."
Cus Bf dun usually play till that late.
He was ONTHEWAY there which made it worse.
And when he actually "reached" the place, he said he wanted to talk to the shopkeeper of the lan.
Well, it made it suspicious.
Not forgetting, Del who texted me an sms which included something like,
"I hope you're having fun at the surprise party"
I replied "thanks......................Surprise party?"
And, she went like "Oh, sorry. Sent wrong. Heh."
So, my feelings went like, "Oh!Okay."
Surprise Birthday Party!
So, it was unexpected but it really did happen.
Seriously, it was kinda shocking cus mum had to go to my room saying, "Dayah, Zul datang."HEh! I went out of the room to see all my friends, Bfs, Boyfr and family there. They started singing the birthday song and only god knows how I felt at that point in time.
It was a feeling of happy+ touched+ "WOW" + glad :)
hehe!
Thanks all for making it happen and this is really the best birthday that ever happened in my whole seventeen years of my life!
Special thank you to kakak for PLANNING all these!
I love you so much kak!
BF for "trying to hide so many things from me."
Heh! Tak lah sayang, thnks for all that you've done in order to make it happen.
HAha. ADElah I thought bf and kakak were having some affair!No lah-.-
And MIra and Nafi for inviting the ppl.
:)
And, all who came, THank you very very very much.
Not forgetting, all the birthday wishes be it through SMS, MSN, Friendster,Tagged or any other forms of conmmunication, thanks loads.
I'm especially glad cus my pri and sec sch friends still remembers it!
:)
and, thankyou all for the presents:)

Points that made it suspicious.
1) mAk: Takmo tukar baju lah. Brau balik nk tukar. ?.?
2) Me: Efah, tukar baju uh.
Efah: Tanak. Adik nak pakai baju ni!!!
Me: -.-
And that efah was Xtra sweet that night. Heh. Ilysister!
:D

Evening.

Wan's 13Th bday celebrating at East Coast Park where we had to dress up in red and black. Totally cool!
:D
HAPPY 13th Bday Wan. May all your dreams come true and may you do well in all your exams!:) Love you!

And, we had a Father's day Celebration too.

21JUNE2009
Father's day celebration at BBQ chicken tgthr with Bf.
Bowl at yishun safra after that tghtr with Bf + Cik Mai's family!
:)
Totally great!

Happy Father's day ayah tersayang!

<3

22JUNE2009
Chalet: Downtown east at Pasir Ris.
Who: PolyMAtes.
Bby sent to Np and off to pasir ris thru train with Rach:)
I miss her so much!
heh.
wEnt to the chalet:)
Quite awesome tho so few ppl came.
But i REALLY LOVE my mates!
I get to BOND more with them. Heh.
And nail painting was awesome too.
heh, thnks Sarah:)

23JUNE2009

Fort Canning Park with Bf.
It was already aroubd 1930 when we reached so it was quite dark.
The ground as wet too.
hah.
We didn't care much.
So, we actually sat on the WET fake grass and was soaked in it.
Bf played the guitar and sang.
Seriously, Bf's really sweet!

Bby, thanks for bringing me there and I love you like hell.
I tanak lose you ever tau!

muacks!

P/S: a lot more pics to upload. but lazy uh.
Drop by my sis's blog for more.
Go to escapes> nina<3

heh!

muchLOVES!

-.-

2009-06-19T23:32:00.002+08:00

so, everyone's acting so weird.
hmm.
nvm.

Anyways, the trip to Malaysia was alrite I guess.
:D
I SPENT TIME WITH MY FAM OKAY?!
HEH.
tHOugh "friends are my life."
heh.
sorry mum.

so, yeah.
Gonna wear red tmr for wan's party.
haiye.
The shirt i bought nt very nice though!
-.-
Nvm.

till then,
shall update soon.

ANdanDanD,
i miss baby sgt2!!!!!
:(

muchLOVES!

MY BABY!

2009-06-19T02:03:00.004+08:00

This post goes out to my baby,
Zack SAYANG!
:)

It's been a month alr bby!
Ans I swear I'm loving you more and more as days passes.
Anyways, since I'd be away, Even Only for One day,
I'm so gonna miss you much.
Sayang I takmo naughty2 tau.
I takkan lupe you kay?
And, thanks for all the love you've given me.
heh.
ILYSFM!

Can you feel my heart beats fast, I want this to last, i NEED you by my side.

Can you feel my heart beat so, I can't let you go...

MuchLOVES.

;D

2009-06-16T02:15:00.004+08:00

TIME REALLY FLIES; I SWEAR.
Oh well,
shall upd8 soon.
hehs!

ILOVEYOUALWAYSSAYANGKUZULFIQAR.
;D

muahmuahmuah.
I'm so used to your presence alr love!

;D

mucHLoveS!

Life.

2009-06-02T00:23:00.002+08:00

Hadn't been updating PROPERLY since nobody knows when.
hehs.

ok wait,
before anytg,
I MISS SYERRIENNA!!!

Anyways, LIFE has been pretty great so far.
Other then the bunny POX virus, life's awesome.
And, my bunny POX ain't really that bad actually.
It's healing pretty quickly.
:D

and FOMG, nxt wk's COMMON TEST ALR!
how ah?
STUDYYYYYYYY soon.
haiye.

LOVE?

I really love my love life!
Like, seriously.
YEah.
Like fucking serious.
Okay nvm.

haiye.
nth much left to say.
=D

i miss my baby already.
haiye.

muchLOVES.

<3

2009-05-30T03:22:00.001+08:00

MUHAMMAD ZULFIQAR;
Khas buatmu, kekasihku.
Walaupun baru dua minggu bersamamu,
Ku sudah pasti dirimulah yang terbaik untukku.

Megenalimu adalah sesuatu yang tidakku duga akan berlaku,
Mencintaimu adalah luar daripada jangkaanku.
Namun, kubersyukur kepada yang maha Esa yang menemukan kita bedua,
Kerana disisimu adalah tempat yang inginku berada.

Ku kan cuba untuk menyayangimu sepanjang hayatku,
Mencintaimu setiap nafasku.
Menjaga hatimu selagi kumampu,
Menjaminkan kebahagiaan selagi engkau disisiku.

Cinta yang telah kita bina kuharap tidak akan pernah musnah,
Kerana kuyakin bahawa diriku adalah untuk dirimu sahaja.
Walaupun kutahu telah banyak kesalahan yang telah kulakukan yang membuatmu kecewa,
Engkau tetap sabar dan mengatakan bahawa ianya adalah suatu dugaan yang harus kita tempuhi bersama.

Sayang, terim a kasih atas segalanya.
Sejak bersama dengan dirimu,
Tidak pernah terlintas di fikiranku akan kehilangan dirimu.
Kusayang dan cintakanmu setiap nafasku.
Akanku ingatimu sepanjang hayatku.

Ilyssssssfm:D

NUR HIDAYAH ;)

;)

2009-05-17T12:56:00.001+08:00

yeah, i'm glad.
school had been really exciting.
NPDB?
sighh!
I really wanna join!
=(
Oh wells.

17051230:)))))))

i'm outie.

muchloves!

oh well.

2009-04-26T22:36:00.003+08:00

I just realise something,so true.
People come & go in my life.
Like, seriously.
I'm not even sure who'd stay true.
Oh wells, its alrite.
I just hope this won't stay for long...

Dear Miraa,
I thank you very much for anything and everything you've done for me baby.
You've always been there for me, through good and bad.
You're the only one that have always been there, yup, the only one.
Seriously, i hope that this eight years of f/s will stay strong, forever.

muchLOVES.

reyhan's bday cum fort caning park.

2009-04-26T02:05:00.009+08:00

Outing with miraajoy and the rest was awesome.
thanks bestie for ajak-ing me.
so, thr was miraa, shahirah, sabrina, zul, zul, acub and apai.
=D
they are really a great bunch of ppl!

well, let me try to update the Pix taken.
hahahahhahaha.

well, a few alrite?
cus i've got like over 100.
so, yeah.

moments never forget.
"muahmuah.we all love"
ryan's CUTEface!--really CUTE!
"li-ove!!"

=.=

muchLOVES.

s0 d0wn under.

2009-04-22T09:00:00.003+08:00

What's worse than the feeling of being cheated?
Sigh.

Damn early to school tdy.
Reached at eight cus del's daddy fetched us here.
thank you uncle!
oHYA, they're already off to lectures/class and i'm sittng here all alone.
Other mates are not here yet so I shall just wait, "sit & stare."
Have been doing that actually.
Am I like freaking kerek that nobody even smiled?
Except for the Uncles/ School related ppl.
Haiye.
Its okay Luhh.
And tdy would be like OFFICIAL first day of school cus I actually don't even know ANY of my classmates though its already like the third day of school!
Hmmph!

tIMe check:0905
hAIye.

Seriously, I'm really feeling down under, all the way to the bottom, sinking deep inside.
song playing at atrium: apologise(OMG!)
sigh.
I'm sorry I let you wait.
But patience bigger than the ocean, they say.
haiz.
Though that, everything and I mean everythings kinda over now.
Everything's a little over now.
Well, nothing I do can make this world change.
It's too late.

Ku berserah pada yang esa,
punya segala-galanya,
sederhana, tapi tak sempurna...

brokennnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!:'(

shattered.gone.

2009-04-21T15:22:00.004+08:00

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

Had been so bored. Didn't have any lesson tdy.CANCELLED.
so, went to IT helpdesk and get lappie fixed.
Headed to library and saw shahidah.
Watched movie @ library with shahidah, syafiqah and sofia.
Next, to some building (blk 72.)
hahahahha.
a'qilah and haziqah joined later.
Went to CC cus they wanted to sign up for the FOC for Muslim..Club?
Walked ard the CCA booths (again!).
They left for S&W and here I am now at the atrium.
Woah.
Freaking boring and i'm freaking sleeeepy!
Arghhh!!

That's about all.
Heading to Ira's place later on and it's best that I wait for them cus they're all from the East side(:

lovelovelove.
alittletoobroken.

school.

2009-04-21T00:34:00.001+08:00

Back to school.
The feeling's so different.
(=
Well, I did made quite a few friends.
I just hope I'd enjoy the rest of my time in ECH:)
awesome!

had mini unplanned gathering
But it was fun.
hahahahhaha.

Lovelovelove.

i've fallen deeper into this thing called love:(

2009-04-17T23:35:00.003+08:00

"I want you, but I want you to understand..."

It's true what you said.
Love is sacrifice.
Though that, have it ever crossed your mind that your "sacrifice" hurts truly?
Do you think about how I feel?
:(

How I wished I've never fallen into this thing called LOVE.
yeah, Never say NEVER.
But seriously,
I don't think I'm ready for all the commitments and stuff,
nothing but school is my priority for now.
perhaps, not just yet.

Dilemma?
Well, I don't even know.
I doubt so, though.
Cus I know and I'm sure,
perhaps, it just isn't the right time yet.

Truthfully,
my priorities now is,
1) Family & School
2) Besties
3) Friends

I must say that you've been really kind towards me.
I thank the god above for your presence in my life.
If it's fate, it will be.
Really.
I'm sorry:'(

cus i hated the heartbreak, lying and cheating, the fooling around...

:)

2009-04-15T20:41:00.003+08:00

Hello!
(=
I'm so happy with my current life now.
Oh well, I'm contented with anything/anyone whom I have/I'm hanging out with.
AWESOMELIFE.
hahaha.

OHYA, AND SCHOOL OFFICIALLY STARTS ON 20thApril2009:D
Excited?Well, idk.
And ya, went for some briefing just now and made two new friends:)
Brenda & Michelle.
Yeay.
Oh ya, and their friend, Atika(?)

gtG noww.
Take care.

muchLOVES.

:(

2009-04-06T23:54:00.003+08:00

Sigh.
I don't know why the hell I'm feeling so down right now.
Seriously, I don't know who I should turn to.
I guess everbody's to busy with their own life at this current point in time.
nobody has time for me:(

Someone, let me out of this misery:(
PLEASE!

rescueme!

April fool's day.

2009-04-01T01:14:00.002+08:00

Haiye.
Its April again!
haha.
So, some ppl tried to fool me.
Like, omg?
It's only 1.15AM now and ppl are alr fooling me?!
ahhaha.

1St.
Haridz.
"Eh, i quit my job already."
me: Why?
"I drank cocktail at work..den e manager saw..so i decided its either i gt terminated or i resign.."
me: Haha.siao. Beh, esk tk mit?
"Haha.didn't u know wat date is today?.haha.APRIL FOOL!!wahahhahahaha!!!"
=.=
Bodoh siollss!!

2nd.
Dev.
"Daya, i want to tell u smtg. from the bottom of my heart, i really love you."
=.=
Who would believe?
So, i knew it was a prank.

hahaha.
I fooled bestie:)
sorry dearest!
XD

lovelovelovelovelovelove!

...

2009-03-31T00:56:00.004+08:00

Well, thinking about this issue sucked t0tally, seriously.
I could somehow sense it actually but now, i know its true.
Why are you being so hypocritical?
Wanna know what..? I dun give a shit if you actually abhor me but then again, why are you being so hypocritical?
Seriously, I thought you were a true friend but indeed, i thought wrong.
The fact that I dun even like you in the first place seemed worthwhile.
I'm glad this f/s's gonna end soon cus i HATE HYPOCRITES.
Friends?
It doesn't matter the quantity.
Quality matters most.

I'd rather have a stalk of rose then a bouquet of cactus.(?)

b*tch.

3D2N CHALET @ Pasir Ris Costa Sands Resort:)

2009-03-29T02:16:00.004+08:00

3D2N CHALET @ Pasir Ris Costa Sands Resort:)
First & Foremost, Thank you yani for making this possible.
If it wouldn't for you, we wouldn't have even thought of organising a chalet!
(:

So, the whole event started on 26 Mar:D

First day.

met up with yani, muhd, qal, nafi, pravin & haridz at bus int.
Took 39 to dwntwn east.
Checked in.
(ohYA, sOrry vanessa for troubling you!)
Put all the stuff and chill on the bed a while.
Got changed and went to wild2 wet.
It was freaking awesome to like be on ALL the rides.
(Okay, except for the ride whr we have to cycle in the air(?)!
Too slow urh. Like waste of time!hahha!)
Seriously, for instance, the ular-lah, the purple hole,
the huge "slide", tsunami and .......!
haha.
I can't actually remember the name of the rides:P
After a whole day there,
we decided to get back to the chalet,
feeling very3 hungry!
So, we decided to have a barbecue!
hahaha.
Bought the necessary stuff.
Charcoal, Aluminium tray, tongs(haha!inside joke!).
Yani had many2 vouchers.
So, we actually redeemed LOADS of it.
and i mean LOTS!
We actually had Lots of food.
Thanks to the shop manager who allow us to exchange some of the chicken coupons to satay and others!
(:
So, overall,the bbq went on quite well.

Second day.

Woke up, wash up and sent bestie off.(bus stop only!haha!)
Lunch-ed at fish & co. xpress.
Headed off to white sands.
walked around.
Saw singapore's next best drummer!
So, qal and pravin decided to take a pic with him!
ahhahahha!
XD

back to chalet.
went for a swim with ridz, qal and pravin.
had pastamania pizza.
Aikha and milo came.
Chris and the rest joined later.
2nd BBQ!
(:
2nd day was way cooler cus there were m0re people.
the part where we had to handle the kids was quite tiring but damn entertaining.
Had such a priceless experience.
:D haha. new given name ti animal= milo.
thanks M________d H__________h(hahahhaha!):P

Out to Pasir Ris park a while to hang around.
Had true-story-telling session:)
hahahha!:p
Bcak to Chalet and ALL squeezed in one room to have a Good Night Rest.

Third day.

Aikha, Khalis & Chris went off early.
Bath-ed, packed all stuff and checked out.
Had breakfast at Mc Donalds.
Bus-ed 39 to Yishun.
806-ed.
HomeSweetHome!
(:

Overall
seriously, ThE BEST chalet I've ever attended!
Thanks ALL who made it possible:)

p/s: sorry for the unclear pix!

LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE.

karma?

2009-03-26T00:43:00.003+08:00

Karma?
Hell I don't know.
Was telling joyy about what exactly happened.
She said it may be karma.
Well, I don't know.

I still don't know whether I should believe what's being said.
Really.
Would you be that bad to do this to me?
If this was planned/intentional;
I seriously wished it never had happened:(
:(

sighsighsigh.

(:

2009-03-24T02:09:00.005+08:00

I've decided to smallen(is there such word?haha.nvm urhhh.) the ENLARGED version of my pic since joyy and regg said it's too big!
Hmph!
ahhahahah! (BEDEK2 jek luh babies!)

anyways, days had been quite alrite and i'm already starting to move on.(OMG? I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M SAYING THIS?!)
Yup, quite quick but these past r/s I've been through really taught me some valuable lessons which i'd never gain if I hadn't been with those ppl.
for that, i wanna say thank you.
(sacarsm?hell no. i'm sincere..from the bottom of my heart)

well, i had a great dayy tdy.
really.
first up, meeting up with joyy and reg.
followed by abang.
then, ______ and ______.
and last but not least... _______,______......______.
Oh yes.
that's kinda all but i sure had fun.
At least, i dun feel guilty anymore or anytg.

hmm,
oh well.
nothing else to blog abt.
anw, my posts are getting lame-r and boring-er as days goes by...
oh well.
Nothing too exciting to share, so, i'm sorry.
Take care..(DUN TAKE DRUGS. =.="):D

I'm serious when I say I dun wanna get into any r/s.
It's not just you but anyone.
It's freaking hurtful to be hurt and be hurt once again.
Fool me once, shame on you.
Fool me twice, shame on me.
(it's the other way round, i know! My version.ahhahahha!)
haiz.
i really don't know.
Mixed feelings, is it?
but i swear its true.
i had these feelings for you from the beginning.
but, i really cn't say it.
i mean,..
nvm..
CONTRADICTING MUCH?(omigawd. internet language.just like miraa.hahahaha!)

some piXxxZzZzz!(so cinaa!!!hahaha)

LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE.

well, just fine.

2009-03-21T02:00:00.002+08:00

Sorry for not updating. Didn't have time to.
haha, busy woman lately(=
Luckily, off day tmr!
I can't wait for the outing on 26th-28th.
I hope it'd be awesomeXD
Oh well, woooooork didn't go as smoothly like it was before.
Sales was wayyyy below expectation.
Sigh.I don't think I'm able to sell anymore.
Let me be as optimistic as Leena,
"It would be better next time..."haha.
My collagues there ae really sweet.
They never ever fail to make me laugh.
I mean, seriously.
Ginny's just awesome.
Love making faces.
ahhahaha.
nth much left to say.

So, after work, waited for ______.
Walked home and we "slacked" at the bridge area looking for the three stars in a row.
I think it has somehow been blocked by the clouds(?)
I see no moon today,
yet, i still remembered you.
Physically, you left.
Mentally, you never did.
i miss you,
i swear its true.

BBQ

2009-03-18T00:47:00.004+08:00

4E1 BBQ was fun!
(=
I get to meet all the mates once again.
I just hope this wouldn't be the last time!
Boon, Plan another Bbq okay?
haha.
I love yOu 4e1!
And thanks Mr Latiff for dropping by!
:DD

Miraa baby,
i love you sweetheart.
Dun cry lagi okaY?
AND dun hurt yourself ok?
missyou!

haiz.
Thinking of you every now and then.
The feeling sucked totally but I dun seem to get over it.
Why must you disappear into thin air just like that??

broken.

2009-03-16T00:32:00.000+08:00
This time was different,
Felt like I was just a victim.
And it cut me like a knife,
When you walked out of my life.
Now I'm in this condition,
And I've got all the symptoms,
Of a girl with a broken heart.
But no matter what, you'll never see me cry.

Put the blame on me.

2009-03-14T01:52:00.004+08:00

Well, no one is to be blamed but myself.
Perhaps, I haven't at all been good all these while.
In just a month +, so many different things happened,
and you guessed it,
it was all my fault.
Put the blame on me alrite?

The only thing I ask of you...

brokenmuch.

:/

2009-03-13T01:34:00.003+08:00

I'm really confused.
What's actually happening here?
I'm really clueless you see.
At first, you came with an excuse that you "forgot".
Now what? Forget again?
hmm. I'm really wondering what has gotten into you.
Or was it me who started all these?
Oh well.

Mini re-union with reg, miraa, mas and akid was awesome!
Thank you so much people for all the care you showed!
(=
I'm really blessed to have all of y0u.
Oh yes, I really hope the plan for tmr turn out well and I get to see all of you.
Especially Renny!
TTBFF!
oMg!!
:'(

Oh well, I gtg.
Nth much to say:)
Oh yes, I can't wait for the BBQ and Chalet!
Wohoo!
(=

muchLOVES!

:)

2009-03-09T01:00:00.003+08:00

Family day at downtown east was great, though the sizzling hot weather.
Though I didn't had a swim at wild wild wet, the mini "show" was awesome!
Thanks eh kak asya & abg didi for saboing me.
haha(:
well, I did enjoy actually.
The host, dee dee, was so nice.
*inside joke*

I had fun.
:DD

can you like say something?
It hurts when you're silent.
baby, say something.
Perhaps, AT LEAST some last few words from you...
:(

muchLOVES.

i'm sorry

2009-03-09T00:54:00.004+08:00

I really didn't mean to. It seriously was the worst nightmare my whole life.
I never thought things would happen that way. Yeap, I WASN'T THINKING.
I can't believe I couldn't stop myself from crying. Sigh. I really didn't mean to hurt you.
I know you really care. From young, I've always and always been stubborn.
yeap, I realise.
I love you,
no matter what.

And boy, what's going on here?
I really don't understand.
Are you trying to run away from me or smtg?
Sigh.

Where were all of you when I needed you most?
None.
Sigh,Useless.

muchLOVES.

:D

2009-03-05T02:00:00.004+08:00

Overall, the day was alright.
Breakfast with you was okay.
I don't know but somehow, it did reminds me of those times we had together.
Though that, those would remain as memories I'd never forget.
Times with you were some memories that'd be kept close to my heart.
Once again, thanks for everything.

So, worked today.
Didn't go on quite well cause manager kept saying I'm always in a daze.
Really? Perhaps, quite tired cus its been forever since I last worked properly!
haha.Sorry about that.

So, baby fetched me at the bustop after work.
Well, its been a few days since we last met which seemed forever to me!
haha.
I missed him like so effing much!!
Hang ard a while before goin back.
Well, time always flies when I'm with you!*sigh*
It was alr aft midnight so we decided to head back home cus he's schooling.
And then, we had to part.
Well, it's only been a few hours and I'm already missing you again.
You must be soundly asleep by now so,
sweetdreams baby;
Goodnight Love.

muchLOVES.

:/

2009-03-02T23:07:00.007+08:00

sigh.
I d0n't know. Is it just me or..?
The fact is that I'm missing all of you, yes, every single one of you.
Call me a loser to say all these but you people were once my priorities.
Didn't mean to do all this to you but the only thing I want is for all of you to understand.
Give me a chance to experience life the way I want to.
Even if that means regretting in the end.
Please, at least give me some space to choose what I want.
School's starting and we're all already drifting.

What's gonna happen next?
Is this what I really what?

I know all of you eversince FOREVER.
How can I leave just like that?
A total, No, NO!
I miss the times we used to hang out and have fun.
Even if that means listening to LAME stuffs Or Crap about all those lame but funny shits whcih made me laugh my ass off.
Sigh.
I want all of you back here, just the place where all of you belong,
where else, My heart.
I just hope you'll all read this.
:'(

I'm sorry if you think I changed but trust me, our f/s, it never would.
I would never wanna lose a friend.

And 1 last thing,
thanks for introducing this song..

muchLOVES.

(:

2009-02-28T00:27:00.003+08:00

well, days have been quite alrite i guesS?
Had tution for three consecutive days though.
Bravo to Ira on your science marks, yOu did pretty good dear.
Try harder and I'm sure you'd get even better grades. Way to go!

Had work just now. Pretty last minute. But, it went okay(:
Sorry Miraa, Fiqah and Regnard.
I'd try my Best for tmr alrite?

Relationship?

Thanks for all the sacrifices baby.
You came all the way to Bedok for 3 consecutive days just to fetch me.
I'm really glad(:
Didn't get to meet you today and 1 day already felt like forever!
I just wished a miracle happen and you'd be there at my staircase/doorway!
ahaha!
Too much.
But yeah, i miss you:(
I'm sorry for the way i reacted...

muchLOVES.

lOVE.

2009-02-22T23:45:00.003+08:00

DEAREST SOUL,
thankyou so much for always being there.
(:
OHYA, 22ND todayy.
:)

well, i guess this song's for us:)

loveyounowandalways;

muchLOVES!

yeahhh.

2009-02-03T21:25:00.002+08:00

I cut my fringe, like finally!
(:
so, i'm done with workk.
and i'm sure gonna miss everyone at aldo.
andd i get into NP, dip in early childhood!
yeahh.
i hopee that i'd survive throughtout(:

i miss the northview-ans!
i miss besties!
i miss gfs!
i miss everyone:)

muchLOVES!

to that someone.

2009-01-26T04:57:00.007+08:00

I dunnoe if its true but I somehow feel that the post was meant f0r me.
So, if it was, here's my reply.
If it isn't, dun bother reading cus if you do, it means that it was really meant for me.
Its true, ain't my business but I was just telling/stating the fact.
WELL; THE FACT'S CLEAR.
YOU LIKED HIM BEFORE; AIN'T THAT TRUE??
Who hell cares who he wanna be with after this but the fact that I feel that you're the best for him.
Its alright if you dun really get my point SO yeah, that'd be fine.

And you, you dun have to like complain anytg cus i guess you somehow twisted it and made her feel that I'm freaking bad.

wtf?!

oh well.

muchLOVES.

from the sweetest.

2009-01-26T03:57:00.002+08:00

e-mail message by b0ybestie

to my dearest bestfriend..
yes,i put my girlfriend before you.
but that dosent mean i dont need you as much as my life..
hear me out..
through tears and fights,
through smiles,
i knew everything
would be alright,
through love and hate,
through betrayal and debate,
for you I would always have faith,
being your brother as well as your
best friend I knew
this friendship wouldn't end,
by your side I would always stand
and you'll stand by mine too,
because that’s what best friends do,
so no matter what happens with us
in life,
through all of the wrongs
and all of the rights,
im here for you to be a best friend that’s true,
cause I love you and that’s what
best friends do.

i need you.
for times im in trouble or times filled with fun..
i need you.
dont you dare say that i dont need you nor you need me.
cause thats what u always say these past few months...
just because i have a girlfriend..
yes i love her,
but that dosent put you aside as my bestfriend and as my lil sis.
yes, i do care for you..
please,dont blabber about me not needing you..
thats a lie.
you know that.
you know i hadnt had time for you..
but i tried find some time for you.
aint that right?
so,please?...

im sorry if i put you through fate that you are not supposed to go thru..
i sit alone thinking of you
and all the things we've both been through
you are my very best friend
and I know you'll be there until the end

i dreamed of a friend just like you
and finally my dream came true
nothing else could ever fulfill
everything you're friendship will

you understand a side of me
that no one else could ever see
you know whats wrong before i cry
but if i do,you will always know why

a friend like you is hard to find
you put my problems all behind
You were there when no one cared
the best times were the ones we shared

weve been together through good and bad
you made me laugh when i was sad
and no one else could ever be
as good of a friend you are to me

our time together is wilting away
more and more everyday
but now until the very end
you will always be my special friend.

yeah,all i need you to do know is.
try to understand me..
all these 'fights' dosent go any better
please?..

it aint be easy..
tapi,it will all be alright..
yeah,
ive always promise that ill never leave you..
so,dont ask me questions about it okay silly?
smile,
thats what i want you to do and what i wanna see..
please?...

im sorry..
if you feel neglected..
i didnt mean it that way..not at all..

im..
im..
im..

im sorry...

forgive me, my dearest..

my dearest bestfried...

=(

Hanafi, thanks for everything..
(:

from the sweetest.

2009-01-26T03:57:00.000+08:00

(:

2009-01-24T02:04:00.002+08:00

firstly,
happy Belated Birthday t0:

HANAFI(:[15JAN]
CHRISTOPHERR(:[20JAN]
TERRENCE(:[22JAN]
BENNNNNN(:[23JAN]

oh yeah.
and now, I can't deny the fact that I'm missing you and will be missing you.
I guess, your love is true(:

my baby you - marc anthony

muchLOVES!

~!@#$%^&

2009-01-16T01:21:00.002+08:00

SERIOUSLY, JUST,

FUCK OFF!

2009-01-14T01:56:00.002+08:00
Damn i'm fucking good at lying and i dun think i cn even do it anymore!
The fact that i'm missing you now like as if you were a thousand miles away from me hurt me much. Eversince the day we weren't together anymore, you never once left my mind and this little heart. I still feel that I belong to you.
haiz.

HOW I WISH YOU COULD HAVE BEEN MORE PATIENT TO LISTEN AND TO UNDERSTAND WHATEVER I'VE GOT TO SAY. SIGH.
you left just like that.
haiz.
goodbye love.

: (

O levels

2009-01-13T00:09:00.003+08:00

(:
i'm really glad.
I can't believe I actually screamed my lungs out in front of papa LONG after receiving the result slip upon knowing I passed my humanities!
Thank you Mr Leong!(=
The last minute revisions with you really helped a lot!!

so, here's my results.

Pass:

Eng: B3
E-Maths: B3
Comb Science(Phy+Chem): B3
Malay: A2
Comb Humans(Geog+SS): C6

Fail:
A-maths: F9

Absent:

BIOLOGY(:

WOHoo!
so, L1R4: 17!

wayyyyyy beyond my expectation!
hahah.
Oh well, I'm relieved.
seriously am.
Yeay!
Burden off my shoulder now.
No worries anymore!!!

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

thanks to those who really prayed hard for me.
Alhamdullilah.

muchLOVES!

(:

2009-01-12T02:10:00.003+08:00

I really dont know how i'm feeling right now.
Am i supposed to be sad or what?
I'm glad everythings finally settled : DD
i'm missing you, though.

oh ya, 1 more thing.
I dun think I can trust them anymore.
Almost all of them are the same.
sigh.
*miraa!help!*

sigh.
tmr's Os results.
Everythings done so yeah, i'm just expecting for the worst.
Getting prepared now.
: (

anyways, i really WANT babygirls back!
PLEASE!!
I MISS ALL OF YOU!!
MIRAA. NADDD. REGG. SUNN.
: (

muchloves.

:(

2009-01-07T11:48:00.002+08:00

"Been through just about everything that I could go through
When it comes to relationships
Don't know what I was missing or why I ain't listen
When I told myself that was it
Now here I go
Hurt again 'cause of my curiousity
Now that it's over
What else could it be
He just had to cheat

I made a promise never to settle why didn't I keep it
'Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating
The fooling around"

broken;yet again

1january09

2009-01-02T02:11:00.004+08:00

kinda late but this post is meant for 010109(=
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
MAy you ppl have a great year ahead:D
love and always.

So, today marks our First Monthsary(=
Well, what more cn I ask for?
I'm glad having you by my side.
Love you always!

Oh well, we do quarell, a lot, but that'll make us stronger in facing the challenges ahead of us.
In times, I get jealous real easily which makes u upset but the more i get jealous, that shows how much more I love you;)

muchLOVES.

boyfrrrr,

2008-12-31T01:26:00.002+08:00

27/28 /12/08
Kota tinggi(:
damnnnn fun.
i love the niece and nephews and i'm so missing them.
Kimi, syaza, ain, nadia, hilma & hanie!!
ahhh!!
meet lagii kay babies!
:D
overnight for 1 day only.
i love the breakfast!
ahhaha.
damn a lot uh.
the nasi lemak costs like RM$0.40!
though only got nasi+sambal, its freaking delicious!
hahahha.
Food jer eh!
well, nothing much happened cus i slept for like 1/2 the time i was thr!
hahahahhah.

291208
out with bf(:
met at yishunnn.
ate at ljs,
went causeway t0 watch movie at cathay.
met bf's mum, sis and cousin first.
well, kinda scary and i was dressed very tak senonoh-ly.
so, i think impression damn bad uh.
haha(:
anw, movie: yes man was damn cool.
Super hilarious i must say(:
and the theatre was freaking cold!
hahahahaha.
so, had McDonals cus bf wanted to eat.
and yeah, that's about all.(:

301208
WORK resumes AGAIN!!
-.-
hahah.
yeah.
its been like 3 dayS?
moved to shoes after like an hour at acc cus they dun have enuf ppl.
my sales wasn't gd:(
oh well, i'll try harder.
(:
bf fetched me aft his work.
anw, whatever that happend in the train,
i guess, i'm at fault.
i'm sorry.
i was being too emotional.
i know.
*sigh*

i'm sorry.

Anw, i miss all my friends!
:(
Meet soon.
Like, REAL soon.
Not till results are out pls?
(=

lovealways;

:D

2008-12-26T23:26:00.003+08:00

Hey baby!
I'm so gonna miss you much when i'm away!
Do take care of yourself alright?
Dun be naughty!
hahahha.step lamer jer.
takpelahm whatever it is, i'm gonna miss you!
(:

Anw, ur post is super-duper-really-damn-OMG-sweetness!
ahhahahah!

And mr&ms Bestie.
I'm gonnaaaaa miss you'all too.
tc tauu sygs!
(:
hahah!
ok dah.

takecare.
(:
muchloves!

hey love

2008-12-20T02:10:00.002+08:00

I'm truly sorry about what happened. Bby, i'm seriously glad you really had faith in this r/s, though i can be damn fucked up at times. hahahha!
anyways,
this is for you sayang. hahah.
Like i told you, i'm not so good with words.
So, i took this from a web. tapi, for you!haha!
at least i find kn?
ahhaha!
ok best..
(:

I'm Not Giving You Up

by April

Though we've been together all this time
Just being with you, the feeling is so sublime.
Kissing me softly...
Holding me tight...
Making love all through the night
Mmmmm...it feels so right.

You've stood by me through all my sorrows
And each night I pray that I share with you
Many more tomorrows.
In each other's arms is where we belong
Baby, let's keep our love forever strong.

All I want is for you to love me like I love you
Please don't ever break my heart
Together, we will get through the tough times...
At least that's a start.

Baby, I'm not giving you up
"Cause when I fell in love with you,
I follwed my heart
For it was God whom told me to be smart
All I ask in return is that we never, EVER drift apart.

Never letting you go sayang.

:DD

imissyou!!

muchLOVES!

dedicated to bby!(:

2008-12-18T01:47:00.001+08:00

(:
Just a sh0rt and quick post.
Like how you want it to be, sweet post that'll make you feel my love.
Especially for Muhammad Ariff:DD

hey baby!
Firstly, I wanna wish you all the best for your results tmr.
I'm really sorry I can't be there tapi Must tell me your results tau, limit2 via SMS.:)
secondly, I'm sorry plan fail. Ala, actually lom plan pon lah kan! hahah! Tapi, whatever it is, kite leh still meet on friday(provided you tak work!)
and thirdly, I LOVE YOU.hahahahaha!
ok tak?
(:
ala, sorry lah tak sweet teros, i know. tapi, sweet jgk kn, at least my post is especially for you aje, sugar!
:P
hahaha.
you take care tau, tkmo naughty2 okay!
I'm missing you already!!

*muacks!*

muchLOVES!

(:

2008-12-17T00:58:00.002+08:00

this post goes out to you, sayang(:

hey, I'm not really good with words but I'll try alright?

Eversince we got together, my life truly change. Life with you is like a rollercoaster ride, full of its ups and downs. Though that, i'm glad we're surviving, still, holding on as one. I never thoughT you'd be the one who'd open my heart, once more. I really hope that you'd be the very last to cus I cn't help losing anyone anymore. Baby, I swear my heart beats fast when I'm with you.
Sweetheart, I wanna be your last.
Yup, very last.
Promise me you'll be mine, now and forever.
Love you, like always.

muchLOVES.

SOrry sayang.

2008-12-13T02:40:00.000+08:00

sayang, i'm sorry okay.
I didn't even mean to hurt you in any ways.
Didn't have any intentions/motive to.
haiz.
I'm really sorry:(

loveyou.

muchLOVES.

love.

2008-12-10T23:31:00.000+08:00

Off day todayy!
(:
hmm, next off is next fridayy!
omigawd?
ok, nvm about that.
let's do some update about my current life.
okay, so days had been really busy lately. I mean, me. haha!
work, work and work. I'll usually end up in bed right after I get home and would be up early for another day of work. ahhah. my life kinda revolve ard work only.
anyway, since I was back early yest, met Miraa bestie.(:
i love you girl. Meet lagii okay??(:

I didn't have any plans just now since bf was working so, asked syerrie if she wanna meet. So, like always, went to bubble tea shop after her work. Sorry tau I was latee(:
Chilled at Nee Soon East Park after that. [ anw, to the boys who saw me, sorry uh tk lyn.. Ermm, klu nk tegur tu, baik2 lah sikit k nxt tym:D ]
Its been a while since we had long talks.
I miss those times when we sang during Mr Long's amath lessons!
And, the times we kept writing in our diay:DD
CONclusion, i just miss you lahh. ahahha! meeting her again tmr! *super excited*

haha. so, met bf at somerset after his work. Since he said meet at eight, i took 851 all the way to city hall. DAmn long. I felt like puking in the bus. haha.
Waited for bf and off to outside ngee ann whr we just sat ard.
Went down to basement and met nadya.(: hmm.. went back to np after that. Ate at mac and then, back home acc by bf.
yeah, that's abt all.

hmm, msg to bf:

sorry if i've been hurting you. tapi, i want you to knw that u're the only ONE in my heart and i dun ever wanna see u go. i can be really irritating at times but give me time t0 get used to all this. i love you and that's all u have to know!
*hugs*

:DD
okay, dah. perhaps, i'll updatee ,more when i'm free.

and, to del baby, sorry i cant make it tmr..
i seriously wish i could go.
Have fun with the rest ok?(:

and sheeena, talk soon okay. Got things i wanna tell!
hahahha!

muchLOVES!

;D

2008-12-08T00:15:00.000+08:00

baby, i'll try okaY?
Perhaps, sometimes, i do feel insecure, BUT, time will tell!
(=
i'll learn t0 love & trust you.
;D

selamat hari raya aidil adha to all MUSLIMS:D

muchloves.

bby.

2008-12-05T01:42:00.001+08:00

It's been so long since I last updated. okay, perhaps not so long ago.
Been working so, kinda busy? haha. Tight schedule you see. :P
Anyway, I can say that I've really moved on. I dun think I wanna remember all those past life we've been through cus remembering them would just hurt me more.
haha(:
oh well, it took me a while to get over this but yup, i think i did it. Yup, i'm sorry but ITS REALLY OVER B/W us now.

anyways, to that someone;
I really thank you for the things you've done and yes, you made me feel the love I thirst for. But, SERIOUSLY, idk if this would go on forever. I hope so though. Cus I dunwanna lose anyone, anymore. Yup, i'll treasure you and no worries abt you being crippled or anytg(inside joke):P hahahaa. anyways, yup. I feel lucky to have found you but somehow, I Still do feel insecure cus I somehow THINK some girls are after you. Though that, i'll try my best to fully trust you cus baby, I need time(:
haha.love ya.

muchLOVES.

<3

2008-11-30T23:55:00.000+08:00

you made me feel loved, once again.
i guess i've found you..
the one for me..
;)

bestienafi, i'm gonna miss you!!
take good care of yourself!
:DD

MUCHloves!

life goes on..

2008-11-29T22:26:00.001+08:00

baby, i'm moving on and i'm dead serious.
thanks for all those wonderful memories.
whatever it is, i've never regretted knowing you and lastly,
thanks for all the times we shared.
(:

and i think i've fallen for you...;)

muchLOVES.

sweet(:

2008-11-28T03:55:00.000+08:00

"hold ur breath bcoz tonite will be the nite tat i will fall for u.. over again.. dun let me change my mind.. i wun live to see another day, i swear its true.. bcoz a girl like u its impossible to find.."

aww(:

muchLOVES.

AWW!

2008-11-26T12:05:00.001+08:00

"she is not stealing you away from me, but you are my BFF and is the only BFF in my life. i will not leave you. i want to tell you that there is no two BFF cause a BFF is the person that can be trusted.and you are the one that i trusted since K1! i don't care if you don't want me to be my first BFF. i just want to say again. you are my only BFF! :("

haha!:P ain't that real sweet? A person whom I never thought would think through this much. OMG. Efah has emotionally-grew into a mature young adult.(=
hey sweetheart, dun worry too much bout friends cus i'm always here for you, no matter how much I scold you. I love you!

muchLOVES!

2008-11-25T14:41:00.003+08:00
Dahulu, kehadiranmu telah membawa cahaya & sinar baru di dalam hidupku. Aku tidak memerlukan sesiapa yang lain. Engkaulah satu2nya yang kuperlukan. Engkaulah yang telah memberikanku sokongan dan kasih sayang yang aku impi-impikan. Engakulah segalanya bagiku.

Namun kini, engkau telah berubah. Aku tidak tahu bagaimana kurasa.
Engkau lebih mementingkan perasaan orang lain daripada perasaanku ini. Perasaan yang telah lama terpendam dan ingin sekali aku luahkan. Namun, aku tahu. Aku tidak berdaya merubah apa yang akan/telah terjadi.

Jiwaku hancur, pecah seribu. Namun, aku pasrah dengan segala yang akan berlaku. Mungkin, ianya satu dugaan yang harus kulalui dan sesuatu yang akan membuatku untuk menjadi lebih matang untuk menghadapi rntangan yang lebih mencabar suatu hari nanti.

muchLOVES.

retreat!

2008-11-25T14:36:00.001+08:00

exco retreat was alright.
hahah!
i guess, the EXCOs had fun.. during the amazing race..
while the seniors had a good time camwhore-ing.
hahahah!
it was oh-so-tiring but the whole thing was worthwhile.
we really had a good time with PUNK.
hahha. ok i'm joking. we had fun with mr leong:DD

overall, great day! ahhaha.
pictures?!
erm, go sheena's blog alright??
see my link:DDD

muchLOVES!

sweet!

2008-11-22T01:04:00.000+08:00

"where i went nearby to a park and laid out a sentence in candles and sticks(cause i ran out of candles) hehehe...asking her to be my gal..but in the end she didn wanna take a walk wit me...so i guess she never saw it! haaha...oh and she still dun noe about it till now..so dun tell her!! it'll confirm im an idiot!"

omigawd?
ain't that sweet?!!!
AWWW!
i wish my bf was like that!
hahaha!
BF?!!

MUCHloves!!

<3

2008-11-22T00:37:00.001+08:00

BENJAMIN LOVES _________________!!!

:DD

(=

2008-11-21T23:07:00.000+08:00

hey baby(s)!
I guess, I know what the main problem is.
To tell you the truth..
hahahahah!
WE'LL TALK SOON!!!!
:P
i hope everything's okay?Seemed t0 me? I think?
=P

MEET SOON LAHSS!!
*SCREAMS*
t0..: dearest {joy,estelle,reg,saloma eve}

okay, thanks!

muchLOVES!

whatthefuck?!

2008-11-21T02:26:00.002+08:00

HAHHA!
WHATTHEFUCK?
oh, hell yeah!
I really don't know what's goin on with my life now??!
haiz. WHATTHEFUCK? omg. Its so effing boring to be like at home all the time,
ROTTING! I've been like at home since forever..[wake up, comp, eat & sleep]
wtf? ahhahahaha! Its an oh-so-boring-life pleasE? And when friends asked me out, I'll refuse? like, wtf? hahahahhaha!
okay, nvm. leading a so fuckin life now. WTF again.
=.=

omigawd! i fucking want y0u t0 care and t0 l0ve me back like bef0re. Its so fucking b0ring t0 n0t have you around. Its like so fucking miserable life that i'm facing. It like s0 fucking irritating t0 see people s0 loving-ly t0gether. And i'm s0 fucking jeal0us and so, once again, i THINK i'm so fucking in love with y0u back!!!
:P

so FUCKING vulguar!

haha.

muchLOVES!

wtf?

2008-11-20T21:40:00.000+08:00

I seriously don't even know what went wrong and who started this. Girls, please uh eh. Jangan pasal some other people, we ruin this whole babygirls thing? C'mon uh, problem kecik takmolah besar besarkn?? And by blogging about it, we're actually letting ppl know of our own prob.. We can settle it ourselves kan, can't we? There won't be an end if none of y0u stop.

I didn't mean to interfere but someone has to stop this.

muchLOVES.

(:

2008-11-19T17:16:00.004+08:00

i find my little sister cute, seriously.
check this out!

title: this is me

once you reach here, copy all these notes put it on the bulletin board. the title should be the same as what i wrote.
then you answer these questions, copy all of it(including the questions) and send it back to the people that sends you this message!

these are the questions.

1: are you in love?

2.are you a male or a female?

3.what is favorite hobby?

4. what is your full name?

5. are you in love with your best friend?

thank you for answering. now i want you to send me all your answers plus the questions!

[and this was posted on friendster bulletin:D]

wow? madness! she did that bulletin!hahaha!
cute right?
:P

my answers:

1: are you in love? Hmm, not sure?:P

2.are you a male or a female? female!!!

3.what is favorite hobby? erm, i dun have any..:P

4. what is your full name? Nur Hidayah Bte Mohamed Sidek

5. are you in love with your best friend? haha. I love my bestfriends:)

bored!

muchLOVES!

(:

2008-11-17T21:02:00.003+08:00

everything settled, finally!
(=

anyways, it was a tiring day after all!
haha.
in the morning, met aisha and she passed me the wedding invitation card.
Next, to 400+ with efah. haha.Too bored, so, we went thr.
It was pouring when we were otw back and mum kept calling!-.-
hahas! SlaCked at home for a while.. Slept again. Was awake at ard 2+ and got ready.
Went out for job hunting...AGAIN!-.- alone, though.

Hmm, the TP RAWKS thingy called. Hmm, shd I go? IDK?
hahah. Having interviews tmr though.
So, I shall sacrifice the fun of the camp..
(=

i guess, everyone's a little too busy..

THANKS CONS BBY!

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muchLOVES;

):

2008-11-17T11:49:00.001+08:00

SERIOUSLY;
i thought everything was okay b/w us.
Not till I found out something just now.
Should I trust you anymore??
:(
AHHH!!
I freaking don't know.

Besties!!!
Miraa;
Thanks fer being there like always! Sorry if I didn't manage my time well, like meeting you and stuff but, yeah..! I'm sure you understand!
I love you girl!

Nafi;
Sorry okay? I didn't mean to make you feel that way.
I hope you know that you're really important to me.
(:

I WANT A JOB!!!!

muchLOVES!

):

2008-11-16T10:55:00.000+08:00

i really don't know how I feel now. I'm really broken inside. No matter how much I tried to move on, something's still holding me back. I tried my best not to think of you but the more I try, the more I fail. It just hurts so much being in this state. I tried so hard to be back with you again for the past seven months but everything has gone to waste. I failed. I didn't manage to win your heart back. Everything seemed so clear now. Maybe, its just one-sided. I always asked myself, "Is it my fault?", "Why did I let this happen?", "Why did I ever let you go?", "Am I that bad?"

I have to quit pretending. I can't do this anymore. I need you. And, the fact that, I'm missing you now.

Have you really moved on? Have you really forgotten all the memories we've been through?

yup, you said there's no point thinking anymore.
*sigh*

muchLOVES.

121188

2008-11-12T10:31:00.002+08:00

This post goes out to you, MY ELDER SISTER, kak NINA!!!!
:)

FIRSTLY;
I've got a list of thank y0u(s) for you...
thank you for your endless support towards me(to the extend that you actually stood up for me whenever mak scold's me..SOMETIMES aje okay!:) ),
thank you for all those lame jokes(which made you sad sometimes whenever I dun even laugh at them! hahah!),
thank you for always listening to me (be it the problems or the advices which ain't useful at all sometimes!:P ),
thank you for all the messages which cools me down whenever we argued,
thank you for never giving up on me (cus I may be a little too much sometimes..)
thank you for always being there for me,ALWAYS!!

SECONDLY;

Yeah, It was quite recent eversince we got really close(haaahah! step tak tinggal same2 and baru kenal jer..). I find it really easy communicating with you cus you know exactly how I feel without even telling you. I don't even have to call for you when I cry cus you are always there. Even when its in the middle of the night, and I cry so silently, you could actually hear it and the least that you'd do is to text me. I'm really glad that I have you around. I used to think that its actually impossible to share anything with you cus i used to feel that you can't be trusted (cus dulu, when we gadoh, you'd tell mak whatever secrets i told you.hahaha!). But now, you'd be the first I'd always turn to. Even when I'm out with my friends and we bump into each other, I felt like leaving them and go to you and that's serious.
Its because, I know that you're the only who who'd always be there for me...:)
Not only that, i still remember that time when you went ECP late at night. I cried endlessly cus i thought you'd never come home and I'm so gonna miss someone so precious to me..

THIRDLY;

You're like my girlfriend, my bestfriend, my precious, my love, my life.
YOU'RE MY EVERYTHING.
like i told you, you're like the oxygen i breathe in and can never live without.

To conclude, no words I can describe to tell you how thankful and lucky I am to have you!
:)

I LOVE YOU KAKAK AND THAT'LL NEVER, NEVER CHANGE!!:DD
HAPPY 2OTH BIRTHDAYY!!
Somethings weird, you're growing alder and smaller at the same time:)
hahahahha.
OK NVM.
i love you kak!!

muacks!

muchLOVES!

Finally!

2008-11-11T18:06:00.000+08:00

Os finally over! Oh yeah!
:DDD
BUT, resultS?
I Dun even dare seeing it. hahas!
nevermind.

Os aside, its all about life..
Hmm, idk if I should get a job..
Many plans ahead..
Okay, would only be free next week. By then, I think, No more jobs would be available. Nvm, i'll see how..

Currently, I'm okay with this life..
At least, I know that I'm satisfied with all that I have now..
Whatever that's not, I'll just leave it behind and wouldn't turn back:DD

Oh yeah, and tp rawks.
I'm not sure whether I should go..
:/

nVM.
Finally, mum, thanks:DDD

MuchLOves!

:)

2008-11-10T23:24:00.000+08:00

FUCK OFF.
yup.
I'm really pissed.
HOW CAN YOU COMPARE ME TO ANOTHER GIRL?
and wth do you mean by,
"U ingat i heran pe? Kalau i leh leave wsytwsxjlxekmlexe, u ingat i tkleh leave u pe?!"
Yah, whatever?
I mean, wth do I mean to you?
Am i just plain dumb to put up with your nonsense all this while?
Being there for you when you don't have anyone else.
Indeed, i failed.
To ever win your heart back? It's seriously impossible now.
Fuck off with this bitchy life.
yup, time will heal this pain, I swear.

And you, Thanks. I'm sure you know what I mean. Thanks for giving me the chance to let my heart out. Thanks a lot!I'm serious. Thanks, thanks, thanks:)
I'll treasure our f/s, always!!!!!!

I'm moving on.
I'm serious.
YES.
:DDDD

muchLOVES.

haiz.

2008-11-10T11:23:00.003+08:00

I really need to blog.
I'm sorry, I know i'm not supposed to, but hell who cares?
updates!updates!

Final Os paper tmr!
well, not that exciting cus the results will only be out in january?
END of jan i think?
haiz.

SO, yest, spent my time all alone for ard two hours at bottle tree park.
Its really boring and hurtful.
IDK.but, NVM.

I really need to let this out, so, bear with me a little while.

firstly,
I really need to apologise.
I can't take this pain any longer.
There are many other ppl who needs you more than I do.
Perhaps, they would treasure and appreciate you more than me..
:(
It hurts hearing all those stuff but I'm sure you'd be really happy as life goes on.
take care.

secondly,
I didn't mean any harm.
I didn't wanna cause any trouble.
I just wanted you to know how I really feel inside.
Its true, that's seriously how I feel and I swear some words you say hurts me, big time and I mean it.
I always say stuffs I don't hold on to.
Yup, easier said than done.
I know you're really happy now.
I know, i'm no longer needed here.
I don't play any significant role in your life.
I know where I stand.
Thanks for all, and evrything.
take care.

thirdly,
thanks for being there, both of you, when i needed someone to.
I know, you ppl have many other stuffs to do or think of.
so, I hope that everytg would go on smoothly for both of you:)

yup, I'm done.

muchloves.

LOVELIFESOMUCH.!

Bby's big day!

ESPECIALLY FOR BABY

work

It's been a long time..

;D

;D

NINEMONTHSARY

;)

:)

<3

STARLIT SKY

SORE EYES

Dear love;

17051230

everthing that i do, reminds me of you..

:(

bby book in:(

babybabybaby

;)

;D

dearlove;

my life, my choice.

sigh.

STUPIDhelp.

EFAH(=

regret is of no use anymore, isn't it?

so much of these and that..

=D

D=

sigh.

UPD8s!

-.-

MY BABY!

;D

Life.

<3

;)

oh well.

reyhan's bday cum fort caning park.

s0 d0wn under.

shattered.gone.

school.

i've fallen deeper into this thing called love:(

:)

:(

April fool's day.

...

3D2N CHALET @ Pasir Ris Costa Sands Resort:)

karma?

(:

well, just fine.

BBQ

2009-03-16T00:32:00.000+08:00 This time was different, Felt like I was just a victim. And it cut me like a knife, When you walked out of my life. Now I'm in this condition, And I've got all the symptoms, Of a girl with a broken heart. But no matter what, you'll never see me cry.

Put the blame on me.

:/

:)

i'm sorry

:D

:/

(:

lOVE.

yeahhh.

to that someone.

from the sweetest.

from the sweetest.

(:

~!@#$%^&

O levels

(:

:(

1january09

boyfrrrr,

:D

hey love

dedicated to bby!(:

(:

SOrry sayang.

love.

;D

2009-03-16T00:32:00.000+08:00
This time was different,
Felt like I was just a victim.
And it cut me like a knife,
When you walked out of my life.
Now I'm in this condition,
And I've got all the symptoms,
Of a girl with a broken heart.
But no matter what, you'll never see me cry.