Sunday, November 30, 2008
<3
you made me feel loved, once again.
i guess i've found you..
the one for me..
;)
bestienafi, i'm gonna miss you!!
take good care of yourself!
:DD
MUCHloves!Labels: i think i'm in love, once again.
Saturday, November 29, 2008
life goes on..
baby, i'm moving on and i'm dead serious.
thanks for all those wonderful memories.
whatever it is, i've never regretted knowing you and lastly,
thanks for all the times we shared.
(:
and i think i've fallen for you...;)
muchLOVES.Labels: ailuvyutuu
Friday, November 28, 2008
sweet(:
"hold ur breath bcoz tonite will be the nite tat i will fall for u.. over again.. dun let me change my mind.. i wun live to see another day, i swear its true.. bcoz a girl like u its impossible to find.."
aww(:
muchLOVES.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
AWW!
"she is not stealing you away from me, but you are my BFF and is the only BFF in my life. i will not leave you. i want to tell you that there is no two BFF cause a BFF is the person that can be trusted.and you are the one that i trusted since K1! i don't care if you don't want me to be my first BFF. i just want to say again. you are my only BFF! :("
haha!:P ain't that real sweet? A person whom I never thought would think through this much. OMG. Efah has emotionally-grew into a mature young adult.(=
hey sweetheart, dun worry too much bout friends cus i'm always here for you, no matter how much I scold you. I love you!
muchLOVES!Labels: love ya dear.
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Dahulu, kehadiranmu telah membawa cahaya & sinar baru di dalam hidupku. Aku tidak memerlukan sesiapa yang lain. Engkaulah satu2nya yang kuperlukan. Engkaulah yang telah memberikanku sokongan dan kasih sayang yang aku impi-impikan. Engakulah segalanya bagiku.
Namun kini, engkau telah berubah. Aku tidak tahu bagaimana kurasa.
Engkau lebih mementingkan perasaan orang lain daripada perasaanku ini. Perasaan yang telah lama terpendam dan ingin sekali aku luahkan. Namun, aku tahu. Aku tidak berdaya merubah apa yang akan/telah terjadi.
Jiwaku hancur, pecah seribu. Namun, aku pasrah dengan segala yang akan berlaku. Mungkin, ianya satu dugaan yang harus kulalui dan sesuatu yang akan membuatku untuk menjadi lebih matang untuk menghadapi rntangan yang lebih mencabar suatu hari nanti.
muchLOVES.Labels: :(
retreat!
exco retreat was alright.
hahah!
i guess, the EXCOs had fun.. during the amazing race..
while the seniors had a good time camwhore-ing.
hahahah!
it was oh-so-tiring but the whole thing was worthwhile.
we really had a good time with PUNK.
hahha. ok i'm joking. we had fun with mr leong:DD
overall, great day! ahhaha.
pictures?!
erm, go sheena's blog alright??
see my link:DDD
muchLOVES!Labels: boring hols.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
sweet!
"where i went nearby to a park and laid out a sentence in candles and sticks(cause i ran out of candles) hehehe...asking her to be my gal..but in the end she didn wanna take a walk wit me...so i guess she never saw it! haaha...oh and she still dun noe about it till now..so dun tell her!! it'll confirm im an idiot!"
omigawd?
ain't that sweet?!!!
AWWW!
i wish my bf was like that!
hahaha!
BF?!!
MUCHloves!!Labels: aww
<3
BENJAMIN LOVES _________________!!!
:DD
Friday, November 21, 2008
(=
hey baby(s)!
I guess, I know what the main problem is.
To tell you the truth..
hahahahah!
WE'LL TALK SOON!!!!
:P
i hope everything's okay?Seemed t0 me? I think?
=P
MEET SOON LAHSS!!
*SCREAMS*
t0..: dearest {joy,estelle,reg,saloma eve}
okay, thanks!
muchLOVES!Labels: :DDDDD
whatthefuck?!
HAHHA!
WHATTHEFUCK?
oh, hell yeah!
I really don't know what's goin on with my life now??!
haiz. WHATTHEFUCK? omg. Its so effing boring to be like at home all the time,
ROTTING! I've been like at home since forever..[wake up, comp, eat & sleep]
wtf? ahhahahaha! Its an oh-so-boring-life pleasE? And when friends asked me out, I'll refuse? like, wtf? hahahahhaha!
okay, nvm. leading a so fuckin life now. WTF again.
=.=
omigawd! i fucking want y0u t0 care and t0 l0ve me back like bef0re. Its so fucking b0ring t0 n0t have you around. Its like so fucking miserable life that i'm facing. It like s0 fucking irritating t0 see people s0 loving-ly t0gether. And i'm s0 fucking jeal0us and so, once again, i THINK i'm so fucking in love with y0u back!!!
:P
so FUCKING vulguar!
haha.
muchLOVES!Labels: FUCKtard.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
wtf?
I seriously don't even know what went wrong and who started this. Girls, please uh eh. Jangan pasal some other people, we ruin this whole babygirls thing? C'mon uh, problem kecik takmolah besar besarkn?? And by blogging about it, we're actually letting ppl know of our own prob.. We can settle it ourselves kan, can't we? There won't be an end if none of y0u stop.
I didn't mean to interfere but someone has to stop this.
muchLOVES. Labels: I'll listen to both sides of the story ya?
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
(:
i find my little sister cute, seriously.
check this out!
title: this is me
once you reach here, copy all these notes put it on the bulletin board. the title should be the same as what i wrote.
then you answer these questions, copy all of it(including the questions) and send it back to the people that sends you this message!
these are the questions.
1: are you in love?
2.are you a male or a female?
3.what is favorite hobby?
4. what is your full name?
5. are you in love with your best friend?
thank you for answering. now i want you to send me all your answers plus the questions!
[and this was posted on friendster bulletin:D]
wow? madness! she did that bulletin!hahaha!
cute right?
:P
my answers:
1: are you in love? Hmm, not sure?:P
2.are you a male or a female? female!!!
3.what is favorite hobby? erm, i dun have any..:P
4. what is your full name? Nur Hidayah Bte Mohamed Sidek
5. are you in love with your best friend? haha. I love my bestfriends:)
bored!
muchLOVES!Labels: LALALAAL
Monday, November 17, 2008
(:
everything settled, finally!
(=
anyways, it was a tiring day after all!
haha.
in the morning, met aisha and she passed me the wedding invitation card.
Next, to 400+ with efah. haha.Too bored, so, we went thr.
It was pouring when we were otw back and mum kept calling!-.-
hahas! SlaCked at home for a while.. Slept again. Was awake at ard 2+ and got ready.
Went out for job hunting...AGAIN!-.- alone, though.
Hmm, the TP RAWKS thingy called. Hmm, shd I go? IDK?
hahah. Having interviews tmr though.
So, I shall sacrifice the fun of the camp..
(=
i guess, everyone's a little too busy..
THANKS CONS BBY!
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muchLOVES;Labels: :P
):
SERIOUSLY;
i thought everything was okay b/w us.
Not till I found out something just now.
Should I trust you anymore??
:(
AHHH!!
I freaking don't know.
Besties!!!
Miraa;
Thanks fer being there like always! Sorry if I didn't manage my time well, like meeting you and stuff but, yeah..! I'm sure you understand!
I love you girl!
Nafi;
Sorry okay? I didn't mean to make you feel that way.
I hope you know that you're really important to me.
(:
I WANT A JOB!!!!
muchLOVES!Labels: :(
Sunday, November 16, 2008
):
i really don't know how I feel now. I'm really broken inside. No matter how much I tried to move on, something's still holding me back. I tried my best not to think of you but the more I try, the more I fail. It just hurts so much being in this state. I tried so hard to be back with you again for the past seven months but everything has gone to waste. I failed. I didn't manage to win your heart back. Everything seemed so clear now. Maybe, its just one-sided. I always asked myself, "Is it my fault?", "Why did I let this happen?", "Why did I ever let you go?", "Am I that bad?"
I have to quit pretending. I can't do this anymore. I need you. And, the fact that, I'm missing you now.
Have you really moved on? Have you really forgotten all the memories we've been through?
yup, you said there's no point thinking anymore.
*sigh*
muchLOVES.Labels: it breaks. its shattered.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
121188
This post goes out to you, MY ELDER SISTER, kak NINA!!!!
:)
FIRSTLY;
I've got a list of thank y0u(s) for you...
thank you for your endless support towards me(to the extend that you actually stood up for me whenever mak scold's me..SOMETIMES aje okay!:) ),
thank you for all those lame jokes(which made you sad sometimes whenever I dun even laugh at them! hahah!),
thank you for always listening to me (be it the problems or the advices which ain't useful at all sometimes!:P ),
thank you for all the messages which cools me down whenever we argued,
thank you for never giving up on me (cus I may be a little too much sometimes..)
thank you for always being there for me,ALWAYS!!
SECONDLY;
Yeah, It was quite recent eversince we got really close(haaahah! step tak tinggal same2 and baru kenal jer..). I find it really easy communicating with you cus you know exactly how I feel without even telling you. I don't even have to call for you when I cry cus you are always there. Even when its in the middle of the night, and I cry so silently, you could actually hear it and the least that you'd do is to text me. I'm really glad that I have you around. I used to think that its actually impossible to share anything with you cus i used to feel that you can't be trusted (cus dulu, when we gadoh, you'd tell mak whatever secrets i told you.hahaha!). But now, you'd be the first I'd always turn to. Even when I'm out with my friends and we bump into each other, I felt like leaving them and go to you and that's serious.
Its because, I know that you're the only who who'd always be there for me...:)
Not only that, i still remember that time when you went ECP late at night. I cried endlessly cus i thought you'd never come home and I'm so gonna miss someone so precious to me..
THIRDLY;
You're like my girlfriend, my bestfriend, my precious, my love, my life.
YOU'RE MY EVERYTHING.
like i told you, you're like the oxygen i breathe in and can never live without.
To conclude, no words I can describe to tell you how thankful and lucky I am to have you!
:)
I LOVE YOU KAKAK AND THAT'LL NEVER, NEVER CHANGE!!:DD
HAPPY 2OTH BIRTHDAYY!!
Somethings weird, you're growing alder and smaller at the same time:)
hahahahha.
OK NVM.
i love you kak!!
muacks!
muchLOVES!Labels: adik saaaayang kakak:)
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Finally!
Os finally over! Oh yeah!
:DDD
BUT, resultS?
I Dun even dare seeing it. hahas!
nevermind.
Os aside, its all about life..
Hmm, idk if I should get a job..
Many plans ahead..
Okay, would only be free next week. By then, I think, No more jobs would be available. Nvm, i'll see how..
Currently, I'm okay with this life..
At least, I know that I'm satisfied with all that I have now..
Whatever that's not, I'll just leave it behind and wouldn't turn back:DD
Oh yeah, and tp rawks.
I'm not sure whether I should go..
:/
nVM.
Finally, mum, thanks:DDD
MuchLOves!Labels: Os OVER:D
Monday, November 10, 2008
:)
FUCK OFF.
yup.
I'm really pissed.
HOW CAN YOU COMPARE ME TO ANOTHER GIRL?
and wth do you mean by,
"U ingat i heran pe? Kalau i leh leave wsytwsxjlxekmlexe, u ingat i tkleh leave u pe?!"
Yah, whatever?
I mean, wth do I mean to you?
Am i just plain dumb to put up with your nonsense all this while?
Being there for you when you don't have anyone else.
Indeed, i failed.
To ever win your heart back? It's seriously impossible now.
Fuck off with this bitchy life.
yup, time will heal this pain, I swear.
And you, Thanks. I'm sure you know what I mean. Thanks for giving me the chance to let my heart out. Thanks a lot!I'm serious. Thanks, thanks, thanks:)
I'll treasure our f/s, always!!!!!!
I'm moving on.
I'm serious.
YES.
:DDDD
muchLOVES.Labels: a little too long...
haiz.
I really need to blog.
I'm sorry, I know i'm not supposed to, but hell who cares?
updates!updates!
Final Os paper tmr!
well, not that exciting cus the results will only be out in january?
END of jan i think?
haiz.
SO, yest, spent my time all alone for ard two hours at bottle tree park.
Its really boring and hurtful.
IDK.but, NVM.
I really need to let this out, so, bear with me a little while.
firstly,
I really need to apologise.
I can't take this pain any longer.
There are many other ppl who needs you more than I do.
Perhaps, they would treasure and appreciate you more than me..
:(
It hurts hearing all those stuff but I'm sure you'd be really happy as life goes on.
take care.
secondly,
I didn't mean any harm.
I didn't wanna cause any trouble.
I just wanted you to know how I really feel inside.
Its true, that's seriously how I feel and I swear some words you say hurts me, big time and I mean it.
I always say stuffs I don't hold on to.
Yup, easier said than done.
I know you're really happy now.
I know, i'm no longer needed here.
I don't play any significant role in your life.
I know where I stand.
Thanks for all, and evrything.
take care.
thirdly,
thanks for being there, both of you, when i needed someone to.
I know, you ppl have many other stuffs to do or think of.
so, I hope that everytg would go on smoothly for both of you:)
yup, I'm done.
muchloves.Labels: haiz